Since the surgery with lasers on my eyes (how the hell did I ever think that was a good idea? it sounds terrifying!), I've come to realize something: I have become really reliant on the sun. I mean, even more than I was before, and in a way that maybe I had never needed to rely on it before: On muggy days, I wake up with double vision, and I go all day with double-vision and by the end of the day, I am miserable. On sunny days, I wake up seeing clearly, and then I spend lots of time in the sunlight, reading or walking or whatever -- and being able to see clearly makes it worthwhile.
It's almost like, with these past few days of constant rain and clouds, with no sunshine, I was being held under water. And then this morning the sun came back up, and after days of holding my breath, I made it back up to the air.
Of course, the sun will start its descent soon enough, and my vision will go with it; houselights just aren't bright enough. Double-vision and glare will become the my reality again, and I will be pulled back under, waiting breathlessly for the next gold dawn.
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